Move On...

Lets see..
As of June 6th, I've no boyfriend anymore. It was really hard for a while, and it still is. I'm so attached to him yet and it hurts like crazy knowing things probably wont be the same between us again. :( And I'm trying to push myself to move on...it's been really hard and I'm still not over him. Thankfully though, we're still the best of friends and I will forever love him as a really really good friend. :) As will I be there for him whenever he needs me for whatever reason. <3

My jaw is doing OK. I have my days where I can hardly stand the pins and needles feeling in my chin that's caused by the nerves trying to work again. But, I get through it. Eating has become a bit easier, which is kinda nice.

What else is there to say....I feel like my energy is being drained lately, and I don't really DO anything....and I feel like shit, like I'm emotionaly unstable and am going to crack at anytime. Ergh.

My birthday is on Saturday (the 26th) and I don't know what I'll be doing. I just happened to remember just yesterday. I don't even know what I want. Well...I know what I WANT but I don't know what I want that I can HAVE. :/ I don't see myself having a very nice birthday this year. I don't know what I'll even be doing. Probably nothing, how fun. Hell, I can't even really have cake :( I mean, I could but it's difficult to eat at any rate, so it's something I'd have to eat in private as to not make a total fool of myself.
Sigh....Right now, I just want to be left alone and relax all day, somewhere by myself. Me and a good book. Ahh, yes.

I wish all the guys that are hitting on me or being over nice to get me to like them, would lay the fuck off. I'm NOT interested in anyone who's flirting like crazy with every girl he lays his eyes on and then goes for me. Nor am I interested in someone who's going to be all super nice and shit. I mean, I like niceness, but - whatever. I'm not interested in anyone right now; I still can't get over someone and I probably wont for a while. Just leave me alone :/ don't touch me, don't flirt with me, don't nothing. Go away and mess with someone else.