Lovely Bones

I don't think I've ever cried during a movie like this. Usually it's only when an animal dies or something like that (HUGE heart for animals) but ... I couldn't stop the tears.

I don't know what exactally it was about this movie, but it was beautiful.

Your only here for a moment, and then - your gone.

People always try to tell me to enjoy the little things in life. If we are here, living on earth, we mine as well enjoy it while we last. I think this movie helps to show that we all need to take in and really enjoy the little things, and that the world is beautiful. You just know how to look at it, I suppose.

It's also a leason of being cautious about things. Such as, the people in this world. Not everyone is going to be nice. Some people, will act it, but it's like it's a mask - to lure you into something and then ... your trapped. The sad part is, some people will do this just for self pleasure. They don't care what happens to you. It only takes one time, and it's over.

Quite sad...

I don't like my life. I don't like the hard things I deal with in life. It's hard ... and the world, to me, appears dark and unfriendly.

I know that trying to see the world as a beautiful place wont happen over night, or in a day, week, maybe not even a month. But I know, that if I work at it, I can see the world and everything else, better and more beautiful.

That doesn't go to say that it will be easy. I know I'll have my ups and my downs, but in the end, I want to achieve this ... before I go.

Who knows when that will be though. Life is here, and now - then it's over, and ... where do we go after that? What's the place like where we go?

I'm afraid of where I'll go. Why? I was brought up to believe in Heaven and Hell.

What if my lure to the Demonic things, leads me to Hell? What if my hesitance towards God, doesn't allow me the right to Heaven?

Do we actually go anywhere when we die? I'd like to think so.

Anyway - "The Lovely Bones" is a movie about a 14 year old girl, who is walking home from a meet of sorts, and is taking the usual short cut across a corn field, when her neighbor (a older man) stops her to see if she might take a look at something he's made.

{I wont go into detail}

But he kills her.

The movie tends to go back and forth, between the present and past and the inbetween.

A beautiful movie.

I don't think it's quite as good as Avatar ... but I am going to rank it one of my favorited seen movies of 2010.

I cheated and watched it on http://www.watch-movies-online.tv/ but it was still good.

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In other news, I finally got to talk to the guy I like today. For the first time in 3 days.

I'm sad that I don't get to talk to him more often, but ... such is life, I guess.

He's been planning out to come and see me. This news made my day, but it makes me really nervous all the same.

I've the same thoughts always running through my head when it comes to a friend of mine, from far away, wanting to come see me [for the first time!].

I am so afraid that he wont like me once he's met me.

I am a strong believer that, it doesn't take looks to have a relationship - and I tell this to people all the time. I personally, don't pay much notice to peoples appearance when it comes to that.

I really care about personality and such.

But when it comes to taking my own advice ... I don't see it so easily. How can I when I don't know if he thinks the same way, even if he says he does.

Silly.